I had many different complexes about my body at different stages of my life. My weight swam, and I struggled with it. I had serious health problems a couple of years ago, and now I have several huge surgical scars on my body, almost like lightning through my entire body. I struggled with that too.
Someone would think that with such problems breast size should bother me the least. Nevertheless, my biggest complex has always been a small chest.
I clearly remember the summer before high school, a trip to a local store with my mother and grandmother. I really wanted a bra. But I did not need it. “Just buy her the smallest one and get it over with!” Said grandmother. I was upset, but she was right. A few minutes later we came out with my new bra 34AA (British size system). I didn't even know what AA meant. But most importantly, he was mine.
I would like to say that I bloomed late. That somewhere in the middle of high school my body became as I had always dreamed of. But it was not there.Yes, I have become more in high school - but in the sense that I gained weight. When I recovered 8 kg, my chest did fill Cup A. But the bust was still big on me. But it was the best I could get, and I enjoyed it.
My mother, who has a size of 36A, said that she “swelled” to size B when she became pregnant. I still have no children, because I can not vouch for her words. But as long as my weight floated back and forth, while I sat on different contraceptives (which usually even increase my breasts, but not in my case) and different diets (I lost weight to zero size and grew fat before the 10th), the breast size always remained the same and did not exceed the cup A.
The men I met said they didn’t care. That I have all the same seductive nipples and that size does not affect the sensitivity and pleasure. True or not, I can say that they did not give me pleasure.
But there were many cases when I felt that my chest does not bother me. Or rather, it should not interfere. If I had a big breast, would my small tummy be not so noticeable? Would my body be more proportionate? I constantly say how lucky I amthat I can walk without a bra and that I do not bend under the weight of my chest, but how good is it really? Because all these supposed benefits make me feel less feminine.
Now I am in the middle of my 30s and for the last 10 years I have a size of 36A. I do not think there will be more unless divine intervention occurs.
I complex about this more than half of my life. I seriously thought about plastic surgery - there is one tricky option, when fat from one part of the body can be transferred to another, and I really dreamed about it - but I was surprised how much it affected my self-doubt.
I usually do not wear a bra - again, because I can! - but if I bought myself high-quality pushup and suitable clothes, and would wear them regularly, maybe I would feel better in my body? Wearing wide sweaters without a bra is not comfortable and leaves no room for imagination. It just creates a sloppy look.
So here I am, who loves herself so much, but hates this one part of her body. And I am surprised how much this complex of small breasts affects everything else.What does small breasts really mean, apart from another choice of wardrobe and small chances of a waitress’s career with Oktoberfest? I bet everybody has something that he doesn't like about himself.
Perhaps the main message is to always love yourself, whatever you are. And also buy good pushap and marry a plastic surgeon. That's all the answers.