Stop closing your heart. Stop protecting him so much. Stop pretending you have no emotions.
You have the right to express your feelings. You have the right to tell someone that you love him. You have the right to admit that you care.
You do not have to be indifferent. You do not have to play along with modern relationships and wait a few hours to respond to the message while pretending to be busy.
You have the right to fall in love. You have the right to smile broadly when he writes to you first. You have the right to be glad that you will see him again soon. You should not be ashamed of your sympathy. You should not force yourself to be indifferent and disappointed when you fall in love with someone anyway.
You should be glad that there is one from whom butterflies are fluttering in your stomach. And although this feeling can be scary, it is still reassuring. And you should hold onto this feeling, not push it away.
And although it's much easier to pretend that you don't give a damn about everything and everyone, it's time to stop running from your emotions. If you like someone, tell him about it. If you miss someone, tell him about it.If you want to meet someone, tell him about it.
When you wait for an hour to reply to his message, you don't seem cool. You seem indifferent. And if the person with whom you want to meet, decides that you are indifferent, he will find another.
It is better to respond to messages as soon as you have the opportunity, and clarify your priorities. You know what it's like to stare at the phone, waiting for an answer. So why make someone - especially someone who is not indifferent to your heart - feel this? Be honest with him. Be honest with yourself.
Stop lying to yourself about what you want. Stop trying to be indifferent. Accept yourself real. Let the world see you like this.
Yes, it is scary to let someone into your world, hand over your heart to him and believe that he will not break it. In a relationship there is no guarantee. A person may disappoint you. He can leave you. The risk that your heart will be broken is always there, and you can break it without even being in a relationship.
You yourself can fall in love with someone. You can break your heart because of someone you have never met.
That is why it is better to take a step. Take a step and see what you come to. Get out of your comfort zone and give love a chance.
And although it's easier to pretend, it's time to stop running from your emotions. Stop pretending that you are happy yourself, if there is one you can’t stop thinking about.